I’ve been wanting to write about this for a long time this might be a lengthy post or maybe it’ll be short as fuck lol. Either way, I’ll try to spill my guts on the subject.
Just so you know, I felt very different about the word attachment before and it has evolved a lot for me in the past year. I will break this down into the two ways I see it (before and after)
BEFORE: Attachment didn’t really have a meaning. It was integrated into life.
I was blissfully unaware of all the shit I was attached to. Stuff like my electronics, my old girlfriend, my food, my lifestyle and just about everything I wanted and attained. I just always wanted more. Why? Because that’s what everyone was doing and I liked the challenge of building up MYSELF.
MYSELF was my ego from what I understand now. It’s this thing we think we are, behind our eyes because that’s how everybody communicates with each other. I am Lennier Vladimir Vargas and I am whatever my résumé says I am haha. We forget about all the parts of our body and how it all works together in perfect harmony with the rest of the universe. Alan Watts says that the universe “peoples” the same way the ocean “waves.” That’s deep if you take a moment to feel it.
Ok well that was abstract lol. Or maybe not. Let’s move on.
NOW: Attachments only exist if I give it that label. I feel that I can let go of anything now because I love enough to feel it’s still there even if it’s not.
Since I’m being frank about my feelings, the reason I am talking about attachments is because I’ve met some amazing people recently and it’s very fucking hard to let go sometimes especially when such a deep connection happens between two people.
I think we all kinda want to feel connected and maybe merge with everything. The only problem is that the feeling is attached to the views that govern our current world which is one where we must find a single partner in life and create a dynasty that lasts a 1000 years lol. (That’s a quote from Twin Lannister, Game of Thrones.) You can find the video below. This one really hits the core in me because I never really had a good connection with my dad and because I was lacking a father figure, Twin kinda fills that void. (Fucking traumas lol)
So yeah, attachments kinda suck for the most part because they make you feel like you’re not whole and that you’re separate from everything else.
How do you counter such an intense feeling? Just RESET and remember you ARE it.
When it comes to people, especially the fucking amazing women I’ve met through couchsurfing, I just love them unconditionally and stay in touch with them because I know I will see them again very soon and I’m grateful to have met them and shared years of memory in just a few days.
In the end, it’s all about how you see it and after you feel the love for everything, seeing is easy.