I feel like I’m out of flow recently and it might be time for a reset but since I’m technically in flow with my ego, and this guy loves connecting patterns and analysing every fucking thing, I might as well spill out some self reflection.
My recent “thing” has been letting go of attachments and accepting everything as it is but it seems that I have one thing that’s lingering underneath everything and that’s my craving for deep connections.
Almost everything I’ve ever obsessed about has been something that has very deep meaning and the minute I feel like I figured it out or it seems to have shallow meaning, I drop it.
I’m not too sure if this is my monkey/male brain that wants to be better at everything or if it’s the collective consciousness that wants me to come back to it. I might have to do my cannabis smoking ritual and ask the bigger brain to give me some answers for this question haha.
Just for some context, here’s a quick list of shit I’ve been obsessed with since I was a kid to the present year, 2018.
- The Internet
- Morbid Things
- Pickup Artistry
- Self Improvement
- Graphic Design
- Law of attraction
- Tantric Sex
Well, I’m not sure if you can spot a pattern but it seems like the listed items that are more recent (further down), are a lot fucking harder/deeper lol. I seem to like things that take a lifetime commitment to fucking master.
I have a huge interest in people right now and it’s been a little tough for my ego recently because I meet the most amazing people on a daily basis but I have to let go of that strong connection for the most part since the people I meet are always on the go, living as permanent travellers in most cases.
In all honesty, I’m perfectly fine with this since I’ll be doing the exact same thing when I start travelling. I’m actually pretty confident that I’ll meet someone that’s on the same frequency as I am while I’m on the road because that’s how this shit works. You put out a certain energy in the world and that’s what you get back
Fuck, I had to remind myself of that fundamental rule of the universe lol.
So yeah deep connections seem to be something that’s deeply rooted in me and I’m not sure what that means yet but I guess it’ll be super fucking obvious in retrospect lol.